Anticipation.

The couple posts prior to this describe my uncertainty about the future. God is good:

  • Since October, I’ve been working one (and only one) job, which has been a huge blessing, to hold me over until…
  • I hopefully get to fulfill my passion for college ministry, starting in August of this year.
  • I got engaged to my best friend, Jeff McAdams, on January 5th, 2013. Only 44 more days until I become Mrs. McAdams (I’m super excited to start a blog with a new name and a new life)!

The future: visions, plans, & trust

I thought I posted this a while back, but I just found it in my drafts today as I decided to revamp my blog:

This past weekend I went on a student retreat with Hope Fellowship Church, a local church here in Denton. We spent the weekend in a cozy lodge in Oklahoma– 30 people, perfect weather, good food, intentional time with God, music, worship, games, relaxing. We had three teachings, which resolved around the theme of vision: What is Godly vision? What is God’s hand in/on our lives? and How can I have Godly vision?

It was awesome to see God’s words speak to people in such ways relevant to each person’s own situation and to also experience the unity of His Spirit.

For me personally, here are some things that stood out to me and some questions I have squirming around in my brain:
•God wants me to have life fully– not to be worried or miserable
•The decisions I make now depend on my picture of the future
•What is my picture of the future? Why is that my picture of the future? Have I prayed about it? Does is come from me or from God?

Life of a College Graduate: Transition.

August 10, 2012 I graduated from the University of North Texas with a Bachelor’s of Arts in English Language Arts, a teaching certificate for that subject in grades 8-12, and a technical writing certificate.

What am I doing now?

Working at Texas Roadhouse as a server. About to begin substitute teaching. Waiting for a potential job as an administrative assistant for a friend through the Navigators.

Waiting to see where the Lord leads me. In my job. In my relationship with my boyfriend.

Learning to trust the Lord. That He’s creating me into who He created me to be. That I am who I am because of who He is and what He’s done and will do– not because of who I am or what I do.

All I really want to do is to share Jesus with people. For some reason, I have it in my head that, when I figure out where God truly wants me (workplace, city, community, etc.), then I will be able to boldly share Jesus with those I’m around. Why don’t I think I can do that now where God has currently placed me? I am the light of the world because Jesus lives in me and shines through me… well He should. Many times, though, I try to shine myself and, as a result, hide Him.

It is my prayer that my words and my actions shine the Lord’s light on all those who look upon me. May everything I do be for the Lord’s glory and not my own. May I be confident in the Lord’s transforming, always-working, almighty power and in that He is always faithful to complete the work He starts.

2011. Life Lessons.

  • It’s good to make plans; however, we must be willing to stray away from those plans when God takes us in a new direction– even if that means admitting we were wrong.
  • God’s there. Even when I don’t feel Him.
  • Important question: What am I holding on to because I’m afraid if I let go God will leave me in that state?
  • I want every area of my life to look like Christ.
  • There is no condemnation in love.
  • “Our worst days are never so bad that you are beyond the reach of God’s grace, nor are your best days ever so good that you are beyond the need of it.” -Jerry Bridges, Discipline of Grace
  • There is nothing I can do to make me the best ______. If God wants me to become _______ or be _______, He will get me there. I am made the best ______ through Him and only Him.
  • Let go of the past. Live in the present. Look to the future.
  • Forgiving doesn’t mean there aren’t hurts that need healing.

 

Desicions: The God of Free Will.

Here are a few prominent lessons that God has been teaching me the past two weeks, each interrelated:
  1. God, my Father, calls me His daughter and loves me just the same as His son, Jesus Christ. He, who is good, created me and lives within me; therefore, I am good. Please pray that this will be transformed from head knowledge to also an understanding of the heart.
  2. God does not always give us one “right” way and one “wrong” way from which to choose. While in some cases this is true, there are other instances in which God allows for two (or maybe more) paths– neither being an incorrect decision that would stray us away from the blessing and will of God. I believe that sometimes God gives us choices and says, 
“Which ever way you choose I will bless you. Because of me, you are made good. Learn to trust the goodness that lives within you.”

For me, I oftentimes get too caught up in making the “right” or “wrong” decision to the point where I am burdened under the law. Now, there are definitely times when we seek God’s counsel and he says, “Yes, this way is of me” or “No, do not choose this.” Which, to me, makes it easier. I think it’s so much easier (most of the time) for God to say, “Yes” or “No,” and I will obey. Even in this case, God gives us the free will to choose our way over His way. However, I do not serve a God who dictates my every step; I serve a God who allows me certain decisions to walk in the freedom that comes from Him alone.

“And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, This is the way, walk you in it, when you turn to the right hand, and when you turn to the left.” 
-Isaiah 30:21